Thursday, 22 January 2015

Bad Days


Yesterday was a bad, bad day. 
Terrible.
Draining. 

The ugly truth about being a parent is that some days just aren't the crisp clean, bleached white perfect moments you see plastered across so many blogs, and baby magazines. Some days are shit. 

Yesterday began at 5am. JD woke up at 5am chattering and fake-coughing in his cot (he likes making that noise!). Jake doesn't cry when he wakes up in the morning, he's a very contented baby usually and will lie for 20/30 minutes amusing himself in his bed. Usually, he will go back to sleep himself but yesterday morning he didn't. This put Jake out for the whole day. 

All of his naps were a battle; Jake cried and screamed for 20/30 minutes when put down. In the end I endlessly rocked, patted and shushed him until finally, at 1:30 he fell asleep in my arms. I tried putting him down and instantly he woke up and screamed. So he slept only 30 minutes all day.

By the time Hubby came home, I had had enough. I was drained. I was emotional. I was exhausted... And Jake was still crying and clingy. 

Do you ever have days like this? Where you feel like an utter failure and like the worst mother in the world? Where you cry out of frustration at the complete cluelessness of it all? Why is he crying? Why won't he go down? Why won't he sleep? Why won't he play by himself for 5 minutes? What's wrong? 

What's really nice is how supportive and friendly everyone is - my hubby, my mum, my twitter friends. Being a parent makes you part of a massive community and it's a good job, cuz you need them!

And today? Today was a new day and a brilliant day. Jake was super happy and settled all day. Love him to bits. 

Yours,


10 comments:

  1. Aw sorry you had a rubbish day. It's so tough isn't it? My youngest can be a nightmare for going to sleep, partly because she's so happy and chirpy she just loves having some attention so fights sleep. Glad today has been easier for you.xx

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    1. Thanks Nat; it's just a bit depressing isn't it? When they spend the whole day crying. Fighting sleep is the worst! xx

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  2. Oh yes I've had those days. Rhodri will not nap away from the house. At my mother's he will only sleep in my arms and I'm so against letting him do that but then I need him to sleep!

    We all have bad days, rest assured you are not alone. I'm glad the mummy community has helped you through some of that though :) xx

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    1. We have this too!! Jake only really naps well at home. Rarely naps well elsewhere :(

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  3. Yep! i feel you!!! i often have them days and its the worse when both of mine are doing it!! totally not alone!!

    xx

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    1. Oh gosh if two of them were like it I can't imagine! Thanks for the comment Leah x

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  4. Oh yes I know that feeling! Those days are tough, especially when you're sleep-deprived too. Glad today was a better day though.

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    1. Thank you Louise, it's certainly a challenge but today been loads better :)

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  5. Sorry for whinging chick, huge hugs xxxxx

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