The date is set. I return to full time work as a Secondary English teacheron Monday 9th Feb.
With that comes long days, nights and weekends full of planning, marking, meetings, parents evenings, resource making and examination admin. Add on top of that, a new Head Teacher, who has implemented a whole heap of changes, and an Ofsted visit looming any time now.
To say I am dreading it would be an understatement.
In all honesty, when I see so many other mums out there blogging about their lives as SAHMs I am filled with envy - you're so lucky to be able to afford life at home with your babies and toddlers. Spare a thought for those of us who HAVE to go back to work or face life bankrupt and below the breadline.
You may well be sat there (and I know people are) thinking 'Well it's a lifestyle choice - you don't have to work'. But you'd be wrong.
We were very unfortunate that my husband was made redundant - twice - in the run up to Jake's arrival, which meant we used all of our savings (and credit card balance) to make it through. Now we're paying for it *literally*.
Now? Luke works for an agency, and we get shafted again there because he does not get paternity pay (have to have been employed with that agency for 26 weeks prior to birth to qualify) and neither does he get full holiday pay (even when he has to take time off work for bank holidays etc.).
When I start back full time, Jake will turn 5 months the very next day. I will miss so much of his day - I will then have a few precious hours before he's in bed. Nights when I have parents evenings, I won't see him at all.
I can't explain how much I am dreading it.
If anyone out there is in the same boat, and has any tips for ways to cope - especially teachers - please share.